well technically todays friday already
history notes sprawled on my bed, my desk
ill attend to them, but perhaps after this one entry
hopefully
Ive realised that Ive digressed from the track I want to stay on
usually, Ill have subjects that Im interested about, and having known
information about it or them
are tools to not make me feel 'uninformed' or blatantly putting it 'bimbotic'
unfortunately I have not been 'indulging' myself in this very liking
Ive retraced steps to reading the newspaper
hopefully itll stay on
One thing that appeals to me,,
BArack obama vs john mccain
i dont have deep ideas on their policies but i know for sure,,
obama speaks better than mccain
(mccain didnt even dare look obama in the eyes during their debate, cmon cain, that was a LIVE telecast)
even pak lah knows better
i think i should dig deeper so to not make my preferences and opinions superficial
obama supports fighting terrorism in afghanistan better
cain thinks the iraq troop deployment is successful
im against both
who are they to deploy troops into other countries
do they really think they are fighting for the best of the world
do they think that just because once before they were looked up to for championing peace now sovereignty of all countries lie in their hands
should this be true, try changing your stands in UN first
the so called body of veto rights as a matter of fact
turning the page to the political condition in malaysia,,
i cant stop thinking how immature it really is
forcing pak lah to step down, muhyiddin yassin publicly criticising him
and making statements in the newspaper
"i have been told to remain calm which I am. I will meet Pak Lah to really explain about the genuine reasons to my claims"(after he's nominated as deputy in umno)
what genuine explanation are there, but you must step down dollah
hrmm I mean, it feels like they are leaders in primary school
whereby they really have to make these pompous statements thinking that they can change the minds of primary students, realistically Malaysian society
do they really think lowly of us?
enough of that,
with in depth research, ill be able to write with more eloquence
now i just feel like my opinions are mere accusations by an uninformed Malaysian who makes opinions for pretentious reasons?
I MEAN RESEARCHlah BEFORE SOUNDING YOUR OPINIONS ryt?
now perhaps my history notes are shouting
READ ME! READ ME!
adding some personal expression,
today i didnt do any sports
my arms are weak,, YIKES
and sometimes I feel as if I have been digressing and unfocussing
THERE ARE JUST ACTUALLY A LOT TO DO, YET IM NOT USING MY TIME WELL
funny that before in TKC, I still saw 5 minutes worthy to be spent for studying
this weekend, god willing ill be going back
dont want to appear all excited about this
but deep inside i know i am
escapism from lembah beringin, keeps my sanity wheels rolling
ecstatic to meet old pals
but no public excitement, it kills eventually
just now I was in charge of DotCO, the very existence of this "kedai" leaves me questioning since day one in KYUEM let alone the reason to the name
a few days ago i had my oxford interview
it was plain daunting
haunting
atrocious
IM AFRAID
but how much better i feel if i keep blaming myself
indulging unnecessarily in self pity
it wont change anything
prayers will , insyaallah
at least you dont give up on god aite
this morning, some of my friends had cambridge interview
glad that they fared well
happy that a friend of mine saw my call as a contribution
perhaps i shall stop now,,
and continue later
hopefully
in search of things that i hope
will shoot answers to the question
whats in me now
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